What is it with anger?

Seriously, why do people become angry? Especially me.
I am furious. Not with anybody but with how I can't manage my anger well.

It's such a shame but I have always had a tendency towards impatience, indignation, and anger in general. I know I'm not a war-freak kind of person; certainly not. But when it comes to unfair things in life, it often gets the best of me.

So last Friday, at the finale of 4 day-long headache-inducing, stress-promoting exams, there was something in the test paper that ultimately took me to a blast-off after all the stress of the day reviewing and trying to get through every test paper whilst making sure I score high. It was something I entirely had no idea of: Things that've never been discussed to us. And they make up half of the questionnaire.

There must have been some mistake, yes, because the exam was obviously ahead of our discussed topic, but, BUT, I have been worried all day long about all the exams. During that day, I have a strong, nagging gut feeling / anxiety that I wasn't doing in the midterm period as good as in the prelim period. So I was totally disheartened when I saw the items unfamiliar to me. I thought my biggest fear had finally come: Failing.

So I was enraged, without shouting or screaming though. I felt cheated, like treated with so much injustice. It was cruelty to me. Of course those feelings could've just been a simple irritation or a "WHY THE..???" curiosity if not for all the exhaustion and stress that I've accumulated well enough throughout that day.

...long story. Something yet to be talked about tomorrow and/or in the days to come. Hopefully the fire dies in no time. I'm afraid I have made a bad record yet again. But I don't mind what people think of me though. I've done so much of that my whole life already. It's about time I set myself free.

Funny thing is, this morning the topic of our pastor's message is about, well, none other than... love, since it's the love month. Nope! Yes, it's about anger. To be exact, it was entitled, "Help Me, I'm Angry."
Way to depict the situation of angry and easily-angered people! Indeed, they do need help. Well, I can say for myself so.

Weird stuff while making post:
So I wanted to share the Bible text that our pastor used this morning. Problem was, I cannot remember what verse it is exactly, though I know it's from the book of Proverbs. So I searched in BibleGateway.com, and tried "a wise man controls his anger", "wise man", "anger", "anger Proverbs" and some more, but none worked. Until suddenly I tried to recall reading the verse on my Bible at church this morning. I'm not sure if it was my memory's work, but despite the weirdness I prefer to believe I heard something at the back of my mind tell me: "Proverbs 29:11". And much to my surprise, weirdly, it was the verse.

Back to normal writing:
I didn't think much of my anger incident and our pastor's message this morning as co-incident events, all the more now that my one-time guess of that Bible verse turned out correct. It was all God-intended and somehow, it made me feel special. So let's see what happens next...