Locked

Somehow I've been seemingly locked at home. I spend more time indoors than I desire. And despite that, I can't bring myself to find the chances or activities to get out of these walls. I just want to go somewhere new. Discover some things new. To feel refreshed.

There's also this predicament that bothers me more and more each day, as if in every day that passes, I'm getting one step closer to the edge of a cliff. . . and one day, I would fall. And that day is back-to-school day. I can already foresee the torment I'll inevitably have to endure. Will I ever get used to the place and the people? It's funny how I could love learning so much but then hate school just the same.

Good thing there's always something to grab and read, like my Bible for example, and magazine. And there's always the "available, 24/7" world wide web, my cellphone, the radio. I can also do a little exercise, which I'm now putting as much effort as I can and as it needs to make it regular this time. Only the more I do them, the more they turn into a cycle of monotonous hobbies, let alone probably tedious too. Again, I end up locked.

Things just don't always look so promising. You can't and shouldn't expect life to give an unceasing pampering. But in the same way, your days aren't always gonna be bad. That's kind of similar to what I say to myself whenever things are awry: "It's not always gonna be like this," so I won't be so downcast. And when everything's going well, I say just the same, so I will be ready when the rain comes back.

Forgot to mention: I've finished the first book of the Twilight saga, 'Twilight,' at about 1 AM today before going to bed. Took me one week. Next up is 'New Moon,' which although I've read last December by borrowing from a friend and managed to finish within just two days due to time constraints (and that made me groggy and heavily haggard), I'm still gonna read again as I want to finish all the four books (and thus, the story) according to their proper order.