so...i can...really?

[my typical scenario]
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i often find myself anxious or even, at times, afraid to just go there and face or do what i'm supposed to, thinking things will be tough for me, that i'll barely get by... afraid of failing, avoiding the tendency to disappoint myself. this thought of mine, fortunately, seldom stops me from doing what i should. i don't stumble over unease that easy. so apparently, despite the dread, i go for it.
then afterwards, when it's through, i realize that everything's not that hard. that i can do it anyway. it feels good and often fulfilling to discover i can accomplish things i previously thought i can't.
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one application of this situation is on our midterm exams that's just been two days through its three-day period. through those two days, which were yesterday and today, i thought it would be too hard.. luckily it's not. so with that, i think i've been doing good enough, though not great, on all the subjects. still i would wait until the results are given before i can certainly say if i've done well or not. probably more on the good side though...

actually, my common situation happened when i started blogging and sometimes, still happens everytime i compose a post, or fix some sort of changes on this blog. at times, even when i read, or sing at church, or play keyboard or write a computer program or report in front of class, or simply get along with peers, i feel the same. could i be underestimating myself already..?

hhmmm...i'm not taking this seriously though.
i can still get by through the doubt anyway.
i overcome whatever is stopping me.
then i go do.
then i finish.
then i realize.
then i come to believe in myself on that matter.