What to Make of Time

I'm kind of in a tough situation right now.
Though, for all I know, it's only me who's making it hard for myself.
Like I always seem to do.

I am dissatisfied with how every single day passes by. I recently realized that time passing so fast is not saddening, but that doing nothing worthwhile in your passing time is.

Not that I don't have anything to do,
(somehow I've always managed to keep myself "booked" with a little thing to do from time to time, like reading, web browsing, or going somewhere.)
It's just that I tend to be dissatisfied.
And I can't be totally sure which things to do,
or which ones to do first,
or which to do more often.

I tend to plan a lot,
but not follow those plans.
I am more like a "depending-on-the-mood" kind of person.
So no matter how I book myself into some certain to-do's I can't do what I should be doing.
I go for what I want to do at the moment,
and as for those things I have to do, I set them aside until they never get done unless it's been like 10 years since they've been set aside and I would be so freaking guilty for not getting them done for such a long time..

Today (well it's past 12 am April 23) I plan to edit the website we maintain, draw another pastel drawing, and write.

I really wish what has to be done will be done. Not just this time but always. I'm not liking this procrastinating-a-little-too-much attitude of mine.

PS I wrote this using my Android phone. A first.