Older in an Hour

About an hour from now,
I'll be 19 years old.

The thought of having to add another year to your age gives you weird feelings. You could tend to be on the pessimistic, which is, you'll feel older. You'd think you'll look older. As if there's something we can do about it.
The optimistic side is much more better, more realistic. You can think of it as a gift, because it is. Thank Him for another new year in your life. Thank Him for sustaining you thus far, and for continuing to do so. Think of it as a sign and landmark of growth: new knowledge, enhanced wisdom, more mature perspectives and more...

So I guess I'm happy it's my birthday...
Yes, I am.

But I can't deny it's scary though, that I'm slowly stepping out of the "teen" bracket. It's my last teen year!
It's about time I realize that I'm slowly becoming an adult. The next birthday after this, I'm line of two.
But I'm still young at heart, and I hope that goes for the literal too.

I'm still that timid kind of person. I don't know why it has always been so hard for me to step out of my comfort zone when I could barely identify it. But unlike before, I'm brave enough now to find my place from to time. Whenever the time comes that I want to, and this doesn't happen so often for I believe "necessary" doesn't come usually, I show them what I can do, and prove them I can do it good. If not, great.

I've found a great liking to a few things recently...
Chocolates, esp. dark chocolate - addictive!
The music of paramore - from the hardcore ones to the soft sounds...
Hymnals (those sweet songs of worship, esp. "I Know Whom I Have Believed").
Naruto Shippuden, the anime - I've always been fond of animes and cartoons when I was a kid and during my early teen years, but time took my interest of them away. And now that I've gone gaga about them again, it feels like being a kid over again.
Taking pictures, photography - It's never gone.

Well those were all I can recall at this time.

So this has been my last day of being eighteen.
I've really crossed the bridge between minor and adult young adult now.
Thank You Lord for this new year in my life. May this one make all the praise go back to You.

Bye, 18-year-old me.