Lingering Sadness

In life
you don't always get what you want.
You don't always want what you get.
So you have no choice but
to make use of what you have.
Whether you want it or not.
Like it or not.
And you hope for what you do not possess.
You end up wishing.
And as you wait for it to come,
sometimes you ask
"Will it be a wish, and just a wish, forever?"
"If not, how long will I have to wait?"
But is it worth the wait?
Or is the wait worth your time?
There will be a point when you'll seem to
bend to the doubt.
You are like a branch of a tree.
With a weight suspended on your end
as you go on hoping.
And as time goes by,
the strain, not the weight, becomes more and more intolerable.
Unbearable.
You want to quit.
Or the branch would break.
At that instance you might think
"What do I wish for?"
"What do I hope for?"
"What do I want?"
What you often forget to ask is,
and this you should ask yourself,
"What do I have?"
In times when you feel emptied
and lacking almost everything,
are you so sure?
You stretch your arms for something
not within your grasp,
not knowing your hands are full.
So you tend to open your hands to grab it
as you reach out,
but as you opened your hand,
you lost what was inside it.
You lost what you had in your hand just because
you wanted something more,
something better.
Or so you thought.
Sadly, you didn't end up getting what you wanted.
You lost.
Two.
What you wanted,
and what you had but didn't want.
So don't overlook what's in your hands.
In fact it might be full now,
you just might not be knowing it.