"strengthen me..."

so this has always been my my prayer.

everyday can be so tiring.
it's just so able to absorb every bit of strength i have in me.
i might have long given up if God doesn't recharge me day by day. He's just so kind to me, that no matter how unfaithful i am at times, He's just who He is, like nothing can change that, that He's always faithful.
life has always been convincing me to give up, and has also made me say, "yes i give up," so many times that i've been at that point where i kind of lost all hopes to go on in life. and at times like those, all i can think of is what weakens me, as if there's nothing more in store for me. as if this is all there is, as if there's nothing better that could come my way.
but then when i draw close to God, i think, "hey, what am i thinking? are these small problems gonna make me give up when i have a bigger, ever present, able God?".
...so that's how it goes. it's just so amazing 'coz, i don't know why but when i make an effort to grow closer to my God, i experience Him drawing closer to me. He just empowers me like no other.

now, just like in any other day, when every bit of me wants to give up, when i feel the world pushing me down to make me think i'm wasted, when all i want to do is erase my existence, there's no other option but to walk towards God, and receive a real, hopeful life again.