finally, less dilemmas

i've been often bewildered by two things these past few days, or weeks. the first thing was i couldn't get myself to be interested about the piece i was supposed to declaim on our church's holy friday afternoon service, so i really found memorizing it, a daunting task. second was the long list of various examinations i should take up. it seemed as if i've been avoiding the inevitable although i knew in mind that sooner or later i'd be finishing them all up anyway...so what's with the delay? fear...unpreparedness.

well last week, i decided i should start practicing the entire speech assigned to me. it was a heavy duty, but i eventually familiarized it into myself. i read it many times until i got to memorize it all. during thursday, i had it all in mind so by friday, i felt relaxed knowing that the speech was all in my head then. in our service, four of us were waiting in line to recite. fortunately, i was the last in the list...so the longer time of waiting, the more the nerves bugged me. until the time came at last... i felt free during the beginning and until the middle of my speech. but when i was nearing the finale, i went under mental block. it was more mental black...i didn't see the lines in my head. but thank God i still made it through. if the audience knew the speech, they might have certainly recognized i missed two lines...at the same time, i messed some...hehe.. but it was pretty cool.. hhmmmm...good...after all.

and this afternoon, what happened meant i need not review no more...the exams are all done! yipee! but i don't want to share the details about the days and hours i took the exams. maybe i'll just say that i didn't review enough for the tests. so maybe now you know the solution i considered...haha... but i wasn't alone. and i knew most of the answers to generally all the items anyway. after all, what's important is that i've finished the exams now. hhmm...i can smell vacation...

yesterday, we've paid all of our accounts and balances in school, so graduation is really certain to me now. that's another banished dilemma...so good...= )